I kissed a girl and i was thrown into scientology Hell
Article by Chris White published on the daily mail Newspaper Website (Great Britain) on March 21, 2016, free translation by Giacomo Tessaro
"I kissed a scientology girl and I liked it ... then I was imprisoned by the same scientology". A former high -ranking Scientology follower, who worked with the greatest names of the church like John Travolta and the children of Tom Cruise, claims to have been imprisoned for three years in a" jail "of Scientology because he had kissed a girl. Nora Crest, who was called Nora Sova as a unmarried, was a friend of these stars and worked at the Celebrity Center in Los Angeles, where important relationships with the children of Tom Cruise and with John overwhelmed, helping them in their courses and acting as "life councilor".
But, he says, everything changed when he kissed another girl, with great liking of both. Even if there was nothing after the kiss. Nora was sent to the strength of the rehabilitation project (RPF), which the former members define as "Scientology jail". Nora, who is 39 years old today, claims to have been forced to work for a misery and to have endured terrible living and work conditions (among other things, three ribs broke).
The founder of Scientology L. Ron Hubbard classified homosexuality among the "illnesses” and the “sexual perversionsAnd said that the Church should help homosexuals "heal"Nora is the first person to report the Church after having had a homosexual experience, affirming the"care"It consists of years spent in The rPF, intended for those who violate the rules or expectations Of the church: people are sent to secret bases to Perform"forced labor"Massacring 80 hours a week, for months or years, relentlessly.
Nora tried to escape several times, but it was always recovering; In the end, in the black despair, he swallowed the bleach: "It was the most horrible period of my life. I was exhausted and wounded, they tyrannized, I almost died trying to abandon the church and everything because I had the courage to desire another woman. They made me washing the brain to convince me that I had hurt and I had to live in terrible condition for three years before they would allow me to leave. This has to happen to anyone anymore, this is the reason for my complaint. Homosexuality in the Church is the lowest point ever, you are treated as poop".
The Daily Mail Online contacted the Church of Scientology for a comment to this article, but no response has arrived. Nora is now happily married to two children and says that her husband Cameron has "saved life", But he would never have believed that his faith in Scientology would almost kill her.
Before his punishment, nora Was a member of great hopes of the Sea Org, the hard core formed by the most devoted members, who sign a contract that binds them To the church for a billion Years. his parents, Kathy Thomas and Constantine Panfilous Sova, were both very busy in The church: nothing easier for nora To be involved since childhood. at 18 He worked as a teacher at the woodland hills Scientological School in Los Angeles and had just enrolled in the Sea Org: "My father had decided that nothing else existed in life.
Ever since I was a child, he tried to make me remember my past lives, which is the one in which scientologists believe. But I liked normal things, such as basketball or football. I wanted to go to university and be a sports commentator. But then, at 18, I had this work in the high school of the Church: I taught physical education and read. So, in the eyes of Scientology, I would have been perfectly qualified. I did all this to please my dad and the Church. Scientologists always want to show their commitment, in all the things they do. I had more and more courses and 14 years old, a very tender age, I had reached the "state of Clear".
“They say that at that point your mind is free from unwanted emotions, but in practice it means that the washing of the brain is complete. They convinced me that, since I was doing so well, then in a previous life I had to have been a member of the Sea Org and that therefore it was my duty to be again".
In 1996 Nora began working as a recruiter in Los Angeles before finishing the course and intensive practice necessary to become Word Clearer. This allowed her to continue with the Study Tech, an intensive study conceived by the Hubbard founder in which students are led to understand every single word of a text, so as to eliminate any obstacle to the study. Nora obtained a prestigious position at the Celebrity Center in Los Angeles: he helped Stars and their children to study Hubbard's Scriptures using an e-meter, "an electronic tool that measures mental states and changes in conditions in individuals, promoting the precision and speed of auditing”, as can be read on the Scientology Site."I worked face to face with the celebrities. I was assisting John overwhelmed when he had a problem with a specific rule written by LRH (L. Ron Hubbard). With the e-meter I guided him to the words he didn't understand. The e-meter helped me to capture people's reactions if they didn't understand a word. When he did not understand, the needle trembled and so I used a dictionary to help him and he had to repeat until the needle stabilized. He was very kind: he apologized twenty times every time I helped him. I worked with the children of Tom Cruise, Connor and Isabella: they were very young and I worked with them during the summer holidays: they were nice, very sweet. It was the period in which Tom and Nicole were facing the separation: they had ordered us never to talk about her because he was a bad person. I also worked with Riley, Lisa Marie Presley's daughter. It was adorable."
Despite being a respected Scientology follower, Nora was forced to live in a South -Fedician topaia with other members of the Sea Org: everyone worked for a misery. After attending a couple of boys (but without having complete relationships, in accordance with the rigid rules of the Sea Org who do not admit sex before the wedding) Nora found himself sharing the room with another girl. "A few months later I fell ill and she said that she would help me with the nerves, a scientology practice that consists in putting her hands on the critical nerves along the spine to restart the body. I liked it, he made me feel comfortable, then she wanted to take me to bed, bent down and kissed me on the mouth. It was something more than a kiss. My mind at that moment was exploding. I didn't know Costa was happening, I didn't know how I felt but I liked it and in the following months we continued to kiss us, but nothing more than this. We did not face sex before the wedding because we knew how rigid the rules were. I didn't want to end up in trouble and I found myself a boy to hide what we were doing. I was doing the most important courses of Scientology, I didn't want to let everything go in the illness."
However, he did not spend much time that other members of the Sea organ understood what was happening and Nora was convened by his chief officer for what she calls "an intense interrogation": "They recorded everything and said that I was destroying the morale of the Sea Org, which was a very serious thing, so I confessed everything: I felt very guilty. Then they told me that I would no longer have my job and that they would decided what to do with me. They did the same thing with [the other girl]. They gave us to work in cleaning and constructions for three months, then in March 2000 they sent me to the RPF: there my hell began ".
The RPF was a ruined building in the western part of Los Angeles: those who were sent there were convinced they had done something wrong against the Church and forced to work more than 80 hours a week for 50 dollars a month: "Era un ambiente dove ogni minuto di ogni giorno centinaia di persone ti guardavano, ti giudicavano, si assicuravano che non sgarrassi. Dormivamo in stanzoni dove si ammassavano almeno 33 donne in letti a castello a tre piani. Se mettevo la mano sulla spalla di una donna, se parlavo con una donna, ogni volta che ero gentile con una donna venivo segnalata. Mangiavamo tre volte al giorno, 20 minuti per raccogliere il cibo e mangiarlo e 30 minuti per l’igiene personale. Ti sentivi annullata, non avevi privacy. Ti abituavi ad andare al gabinetto e avere cinque persone che ti guardavano. La stanze erano piene di scarafaggi e insetti, dormivamo su materassi sporchi posati su reti arrugginite che risalivano agli anni ’50. Queste condizioni disgustose diventavano la norma, pensavi che era quello che ti meritavi e che avevano ragione loro: eri un mezzo di m***a che non valeva niente. Parlavamo solo quando qualcuno ci rivolgeva la parola. Le comunicazioni con l’esterno erano fortemente filtrate, perciò se mia mamma mi scriveva una lettera la facevano sparire o mi interrogavano sul perché avesse scritto una determinata cosa. Ricevevamo 11,25 dollari alla settimana e con quei soldi dovevamo comperare tutto, inclusi i prodotti per l’igiene personale. Se volevi fare uno spuntino, dovevi comperartelo. Andavi alla mensa e ti facevano pagare un dollaro per una Coca Cola e due dollari per una barretta proteica. Non ti restava quasi nulla per il resto della settimana. Ti obbligavano a correre tutto il giorno, tutti i giorni. Se dovevi andare in bagno, dovevi correrci. L’uniforme era composta di jeans neri, maglietta grigia, cintura e scarpe da lavoro, perché tutti in un modo o nell’altro lavoravano nelle costruzioni. Io lavoravo come elettricista anche se non ne sapevo nulla. Ti assegnavano vari compiti da completare entro un certo tempo. Per esempio, dovevo installare cinque scatole di derivazione in un minuto: se fallivo, dovevo ‘fare un giro’, vale a dire andare nel seminterrato dell’edificio e fare 400 metri di corsa. Se non volevano lasciarti il tempo di correre, ti facevano fare cinquanta addominali o flessioni sul posto ogni volta che fallivi il compito”.
"They also threw 'Out of the board', an expression that derived from the fact that in other bases people were punished with being laid in a lake or swimming pool. Since there was no water there, you were standing in an empty garbage bin while the people around they threw buckets of frozen water on your head and shouted on you saying that you were a poop. After they had finished, they forced you to clean up everything.
Every Tuesday we needed hamburgers and chips for lunch. It was the only thing, apart from the cold scrambled eggs for breakfast, which we ate regularly. They forced us to stay in line waiting for the distribution of food, we were about 250 people. When the doors opened there were great trays of hamburgers and chips and people threw themselves on it, it was like a scene from the lord of the flies, they gave themselves elbows and punches, they snatched the hamburgers from the hands, they shouted in the face, then they ran towards the corners of the room with food and ate it quickly, like angry animals. There we fought for life every day."
During the period in which he worked in the constructions Nora reported various injuries, such as three broken ribs and two hernias on the disc: "I was making a typical scientological activity that consists in moving one person from one part of a room to another using verbal and physical commands. I was working with a man who was more than 40 years old and weighed more than 90 kilos. It was increasingly nervous because he could not move through the room and suddenly he became violent: he threw me to the ground and made me rebound repeatedly on the concrete floor. Two ribs on the left side came out of their position and turned off, one of the right side fractured. I had neither pain relievers nor anti -inflammatory and I was still forced to work. Then, while we were building a new wing of the building, I started to demolish a wall with a hammer. After 20 minutes I collapsed, unable to move. I couldn't walk alone and I was curved like a 95 -year -old woman. As soon as I could stand up alone for more than ten minutes I was postponed to work from ten to fifteen hours a day. After all that had happened I absolutely didn't want to stay anymore, but leaving was virtually impossible".
After two years in the RPF, literally exhausted and wounded, Nora tried to escape: "They said I could leave but they made me interrogation with thousands of questions: are you a secret agent of the FBI? Do you want to damage the Church? And on this way. The only official way to leave the church is to appear in front of a group of colleagues from the Sea Org, with whom you have lived elbow for a long time, and show them that you are no longer suitable for being in the Sea Org, you must say that you are pathetic, that you are not worthy of it. I had to say that I was a degraded human being, unable to help myself or other people, who I was a terrible person and who, please, kicked me away. It was one of the worst days of my life; Then I had to wait three months their decision while day after day they convinced me to stay. They told me that I was a useless person and that outside I could just be a blow, that I had nothing. They threatened to split my family, they said that I could no longer speak with my mother and sister. In the end I changed my mind and I decided to stay: they had broken me again".
But the drop that made the vase overflow came only a few months later, in November 2002, when Nora was punished for having laughed and joked with another woman: "Ero stata messa in lavanderia e mi stavo facendo due risate con questa donna, qualcuno ci vide e pensò che stessi cercando di sedurla, così mi ordinarono di confessare tutto di fronte a un E-Meter, che avrebbe dovuto confermare se dicevo la verità. Mi fecero un sacco di domande: se l’avevo baciata, se l’avevo toccata, se le avevo fatto discorsi sporchi. Mi misi a ridere. Posai l’E-Meter e dissi: ‘Questa non è Scientology’ e cercai di uscire dalla stanza, ma loro mi fermarono. Arrivarono molte altre persone. Cercai di arrivare alla porta e ci ero quasi riuscita, quando mi presero da ogni parte e mi gettarono a terra. A un certo punto avevo tredici persone su di me, che mi schiacciavano a terra. Non potevo muovermi, urlavo, ma in qualche modo riuscii a liberare la via con un braccio, aprire la porta e liberarmi. Mi mollavano calci e pugni, avevo la faccia coperta di sangue, ma continuavo a correre. Non connettevo molto, così non andai dalla polizia, corsi invece dalla sicurezza della base, che mi tenne lì fino a che un ufficiale della RPF venne a prendermi. Il giorno dopo l’ufficiale comandante mi disse che ero un pezzo di m***a e che sarei stata duramente punita. Venni mandata a lavare muri, ma perfino mentre lavoravo gridavo istericamente. Pensavo non ci fosse via di fuga, cercai di tagliarmi i polsi con le forbici ma erano così smussate che non ci riuscii, pensavo davvero di essere così inetta da non riuscire nemmeno a uccidermi. Allora andai in uno sgabuzzino e vidi una grossa bottiglia di candeggina industriale: ne bevvi un tappo intero. Caddi all’indietro in preda alle convulsioni, la gola cominciò a gonfiarsi. Quando mi trovarono presero un cartone di latte, mi misero in una stanza e me lo fecero bere.
Then came a scientology doctor, who escorted me to the hospital and ensured that I told the story they had prepared, that I was not depressed and that I had drank the bleach by chance. The hospital doctor did not believe me and continued to ask me the same questions, but I knew me to the scientology version. When I left the hospital they took me to a building where they forced me to sign a liberating with whom I committed myself not to sue the Church, not to say negative things or criticize. I said it in front of a camera. I didn't care, I just wanted to go home. Then they took me by car to the Eagle Rock neighborhood in Los Angeles, where my mom lived. I was very raised in seeing it. But for five years I have not told her what really happened".
Out of Scientology, Nora noticed that he knows nothing about the world and not having hopes to find a job. Fortunately, a few months later she met her future husband Cameron, who understood her well being an ex Sea Org. The two got married in 2005 and have two children, seven years old Landons and nick of nine. "I felt that the entire planet would go in illness because I had left the Sea Org. It took years to forget this gigantic sense of guilt. When I discovered the truth about Scientology I understood the bitter truth, namely that nothing I did in the Church was important for someone. I had no impact on the life of others, of the planet. They were all lies. I had never used a phone, never done normal things. The most difficult thing was not to behave as a member of the Sea Org.
When I started working I never left the desk, my boss had to order me to eat. I ate very quickly, as it was natural, even if I didn't have to respect precise times. I could take a walk, I was allowed to talk to anyone, it was a bizarre thing to try to be human again. I don't think I would have made it without having Cameron by my side. I can say safely that marrying my husband and having my children saved my life."
