A faith and a life destroyed by those who wanted to cure me because they are gay
Extract from José Beltrán's interview with Alberto Pérez published on the website of the Catholic weekly Vida nueva (Spain) On July 9, 2021, freely translated by Giacomo Tessaro
"Life has given me many slaps, but I learned." When you look back Alberto Pérez, born in Gran Canaria in 1991, can be seen how "The typical boy next door, who went to Mass", who felt something inside the heart and which for this entered the minor seminary of the island, "Where I have never seen anyone obsessed with the sixth commandment".
His religious restlessness then led him to flirt with the Pentecostali while the first doubts about his affectivity began to appear, until, at eighteen, he decided to speak with his parents, but without confessing everything: "I said they had a crisis of identity and vocation, but without any allusion to the question of homosexuality". He then decided to go to Cantabria to live with Father Santiago Olmeda, founder of the group "Hope is possible" (Es Posible La Esperanza).
There followed the rules suggested by the books of Richard Cohen [psychologist famous in the environment of former gays, Ndt], whose Alfieri believe that it is possible to change sexual orientation:“Santiago sent me to Madrid from Dr. Polaino Aquilino, to take care of me.He told me I wasn't sick, but I came out from there taking three tablets ".
With the help of the community and the doctor Alberto felt "Healed", and in 2012, during the world meeting of the families of Madrid, he offered his testimony of conversion.From that moment he became the protagonist of meetings and training sessions for therapists "Who do this type of interventions". When his story was made the pediatrician on the internet Miguel Ángel Sánchez Cordón put in touch with him to create Verdad y Libertad (truth and freedom),The association now disavowed by the Holy See.
When it was created Verdad y libertad?
Between the end of 2012 and the beginning of 2013. In the first two years I have appeared as one of the founders. I was a boy who had recently been of age, but I had a certain theological formation because I had obtained a pastoral care diploma in the United States, in a Protestant Institute. With [Sánchez Cordón], who was then fifty -five years old, I began a process of accompanying and verbal expression of my changes and therapies.
Given the results, we started working with Portuguese, Italian doctors and specialists ... When you are young and full of fears, you greedily drink any speech that gives you security.It is only later that you realize you live in a bubble that has nothing to do with reality. When everything was flanked I entered crisis, I decided to leave and Miguel Ángel separated from me.
What did you open your eyes?
Exploded in 2015, for a conjunction of various elements. At that time I began to reduce drugs and I had a girlfriend, but I noticed that men continued to like me. You are convinced of what you are doing, but a time comes when warn you to be immersed in a theory that does not correspond to what you really have in your heart. So I entered crisis, and I also thought of ending it.
At that moment my whole life turned around [to my being a former gay], I had become a point of reference, and all this had become my work. I couldn't tell me "Now I accept myself and go to my way". In the end I had to take ahead with myself, after I was now exhausted. Imagine what it can mean to do this leap when I had internalized, as if they had made me washing the brain, the cultural war, the ideology of gender, the perversion of the gay lobby, the satanism of homosexuality ...
Starting from that moment you closed with the association ...
Yes, this is the case. Once all the contacts are lost, and only years later I understood the whole scope of that period. Far from being stronger, I had come out with the bones to pieces, as well as self -esteem.I still have to deal with the aftermath of the dynamic ones. Someone will think that I suffer from anxiety precisely because homosexuality is associated with depression, vice ... Now I have discovered that it is the opposite, anxiety and anxiety problems arise from not having lived in a natural way, that they were afraid, shame, sense of guilt, even disgust [for themselves].
I came out of it, not because I am gay, but for being manipulated and for the prejudices that inculcated me. I was engraved in my mind that time Santiago told me: "Once you try, that will be the beginning of the destruction of your soul". It is difficult to put the feelings of guilt aside to live a healthy affectivity.I had begun to take a shower in a compulsive way to feel clean, to eat in a reckless way ...
Original text: Alberto Pérez: "Salò y deshecho de 'Verdad y Libertad', with the self -existing Machacada"
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